So...yeah

I decided to start a blog. I'm not really even sure why. My life isn't even all that interesting. I used to keep one on fencing.net, but it was really more of a training journal, and the stupid annoying teenagers there got on my nerves.

But I digress..... I used to write a lot in high school and college. I even won an award in college for an essay I wrote. Maybe someday I'll post it on here. But anyway, at some point I just kind of lost my way. I used to be into music (I have a degree in it for pete's sake), and I used to draw and write, and all sorts of that creative stuff, but I just kind of....stopped. A lot of things have changed about me in the past five or so years. I'm not sure all of them were for the positive either. So, in my attempt to re-find myself, I'm here....creating a blog.

You see....I've been in kind of a bad way lately. I'm just so unhappy with...well... everythiong, that I'm not sure what to do to fix it. So I guess writing it down is a good start.

Don't get me wrong, I don't want this to be a "pity Karen fest" or anything, but I need to get some of this shit out. My job sucks. I work with this woman who is an absolute bitch. She completely fabricates things to make me look bad, and I think my boss buys most of it. It sucks. To make things worse, she makes almost twice what I do, for doing half the amount of work. I need to find a different job.

My marriage is....well....not the greatest. Don't get me wrong, I'm not beaten or anything, but my husband isn't exzactly very attentive. Enough about that though.

Then there's the fencing thing. I've been fencing for about 6 years now, but still just absolutely horrible at it. I used to be pretty good, but I'm not sure what happened. It's like I've been in this horrible downward spiral for the past couple of years, just getting worse and worse. It's really depressing when you get your ass consistently kicked by 15 year olds.

But anyway, enough bitching for now. Until next time.....